August Eclipse

Good afternoon,
today at 10:20 AM there was an eclipse. I had my sunglasses to see it, yet through it all, I somehow thought about Eddie and could not help to think about CSULB. It is mental how after 2 years of moving to San Diego I still think about him.
The mind is connected to the body and vice versa.
I am currently at my cubicle at work at SDGE and my shift is done. It is almost 3:30 PM and I need to schedule a massage yet somehow I cannot stop thinking about Eddie. I am insane. Now I am even dating a guy from here, well technically he is from El Centro and not from San Diego. Nevertheless, it is mental and exhausting how I am still not over Eddie. This is one douche move from the mind and spirit.
In life, updates I practice improv at Finest City at North Park in San Diego, CA and I enjoy it very much. It brings laughter and joy into my life. I have to go now. say yes!
  • Current Location: California, La Jolla
  • Current Mood: exhausted exhausted
  • Current Music: DeVotchka - The Winner Is
why is she frighten? took this from izic

Dalia Downer

Tonight I am Dalia Downer, I rented a car on Wednesday. I drove and parked all around East LA, Monterey Park, Pico Rivera, Downey. Parked it without a parking pass at home for 4hrs & now the tow truck took it. Talk about unexpected spending. It's 4am and I'm out of my mind.

Why is it that sometimes you are out in the world all day and you are safe only return home to bad news or unfortunate situations? Also, i think I am in denial about my aunts death. She passed on the 9th & I havnt cried. Anyways. Its 429Am, going back to sleep. I miss you douches bags!!

light, sight, fight, might

Why Do I miss you?
I see you when I walk around
I miss you when I drive through Pico Rivera and Downey.
Its insane how I sometimes think of you during lunch time.
I am out of my mind to see you through the wall
Time heals yet I am running after the fall
I yearn to be happy even if you are out of sight
Why can't I just find the right light?
I need to find an appropriate car to drive
The one I have I love yet it is not mine

I need to get by
I want to survive
I like to receive a high five
I am out of my mind
I miss you
You are now out of sight
People fight and run similar to a knight
Its late

Why do I still miss you, even after I find the light?

Sticky weather

This humidity is killing me. I am breaking out again.
Its the summer weather and sweat clogging up my mores. I cannot stand the heat and prefer cold weather. When is it going to rain again in Southern California? We are now in a 9 month drought and conditions do not seem to improve in the near future.
We need to conserve more water, I am doing my part by taking shorter showers and saving water by washing the dishes on the machine rather than hand washes.


For the past three days, I have been feeling nauseated. My head hurts and I feel the urge to vomit. My senses are definitely not 100% and it is terrible.

Today, When Mexico lost against the Netherlands over the penalty kick it made matters worse. I was mad, sad and nauseated. Mexico was robbed of a win by the Dutch, the final score was 2-1. Giovanni dos Santos scored a goal for Mexico right after the second half began. Then around minute 80 a Dutch scored to tie the game. The heart breaker was that supposedly Rafa Marquez hit a Dutch player and the referee called out a penalty. AH! that is the madness, in my opinion, it was not a penalty fault, the Dutch player threw himself into the ground and acted. Unfortunately, my opinion here does not count and it was all over when the Dutch fooled Memo Ochoa's greatness at the goal line. The 2014 FIFA World Cup round for Mexico is officially over. The game was played at Fortaleza in a scorching and humid stadium. It was approximately 97 Fahrenheit. Noooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Now we must wait another four years to see what El Tri can do in the soccer fields of whichever country is the next host. I know it is just a game but the aftermath feels awful. What more can I do but drink tea, orange juice, relax and continue applying to jobs. Oh well, I am still proud of the team though, heart broken of the loss but still proud of Miguel 'El Piojo' Herrera's run at the Mundial in Brasil. For now I will cheer for Colombia and of course the USA's National Soccer team, and focus on treatment for the nausea.

stay with me is a heart pounding song

I had seen Sam Smith on SNL back in March and this week I heard his STAY WITH ME track several times on the radio. I love it and it reminds me of unwanted love. its a horrible feeling when you love someone but that person does not love you. Will you stay with me? You're all I need

Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me

[Verse 2:]
Why am I so emotional?
No, it's not a good look, gain some self-control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt
  • Current Mood: emotional
  • Current Music: Sam Smith - Stay With Me
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june gloom, grads and pains

my back hurts, my heart aches and the mull is half full. or is it half empty?
I didn't know Target sold milk and beer nor did I know how replenishment of aisles took loads of work and energy. Sometimes my back hurts from pushing boxes, other times I laugh at the memories certain products bring me by simply looking at them. For example, last night Robitussin took me back to Oakland road trip, the CSULB Health Center, BART rides and San Francisco walks. It's amazing and ridiculous how a simple product can make me reminisce of memories and events.
I miss my friends yet there are with me in the most surprising places. I find them in a song, at a store and with Robitussin. It astounds, surprises and saddens me. I cannot return to the memory but the memory lives within me.

Speaking of memories, today as I sat at the Santa Ana Bowl waiting for the Saddleback candidates for high school diploma I reminisced of Dante's graduation that occurred seven years. Today it was Lucas's, my cousin's graduation and it was all green. Green gowns, green grass, green leis, green shirts and green carpet. I think I reminisce too much and need to realize how I need to preoccupy myself with more job applications and interview news.

In other news, it has now been a week of FIFA World cup and I am not sick of Futbol. I love the excitement and goals as well as the nerves and frustration.
  • Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
  • Current Music: gone, gone, gone

love is a losing game

"Love Is A Losing Game"

For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game

One I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand

Self professed... profound
Till the chips were down
...know you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand

Though I battle blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game